That’s today’s view out the windows. I did not venture out. Did barre and yoga classes this morning before starting to work at 1PM. I am savoring this last week of constant work. It is saving what little is left of my sanity.
Yesterday’s propaganda memo concluded with:
We have all learned so much about new ways to live, thrive and stay safe this past year. Our commitment to you is that Goodwin House will build on these new levels of safety for your health and wellness going forward, and we will retain the new ways of engagement as we restore the old ways to enable the highest levels of participation and connection with family and friends.
Well, I don’t want that anymore. I want to be responsible for myself. I don’t want to “stay safe” anymore. Well actually, I do want to be safe. But, I want to decide for myself what is “safe” for me. I never liked anyone telling me what to do. Just ask my husbands. Or my mother. Or my bosses. Or my teachers.
Today I realized that if I do what I think is “safe” I might die. On the other hand, if I do what management decides is safe for me I might die. The destination is the same. The journey is different. And no one gets out of the Asylum alive anyhow.
I am having an increasingly difficult time reconciling living in the Asylum and living a real life. Real-life. You know. riding the bus. going to trader joes. getting your teeth cleaned w/o punitive quarantine. maybe going to the actual office.
But, my friends live here. Do friends surpass self-determination? Of course, they do. Get a grip, old girl. Get a grip.
Gratitude
Time to round up my “universal covid gratitude list”. (I haven’t needed my universal trip list in a very long time.)
The weather is great.
Biden is in the White House.
My health is good.
I have had 2 Covid vaccines.
My weight is under control.
I have a nice cozy apartment.
I have lots of Kindle books to read.
And audiobooks to listen to.
There are lots of online resources that I have yet to tap into.
I have friends. Good friends.
So I will try to follow the rules. At least some of them. Some of the time Just for today.
Mālama Pono