Well, the adrenaline anesthesia of shock is wearing off. The bleakness of the future is setting in. Just came back from the grocery. Yogurt run. Will I ever turn on the stove again?
I spent most of the day at one of the proposed old folks asylums. That wasn’t bad. Got me out of the apartment for 5 hours. They fed me sausages and beer. And I went to look at about 10 apartments and visited with the old people who live in the apartments. Getting me settled into or at least pointed at an old folks asylum was one of the Carlton’s priority items.
So, as Laurent said yesterday – there are no APPS for real life. But, hey, I could make a new Gmail tag and tag all the incoming sympathy emails. Did that. I could back up my computer – because I am not myself right now. Who knows what will happen. Did that. And, I could dig the last photos I took of a living Carlton out of the recycle bin. Did that.
These are the last photos that I took of Carlton – Wednesday afternoon. He was coming back to the apartment after his afternoon bike ride and I was leaving on a little walk to make the FitBit happy.
Oh, and I found out that Carlton did play tennis yesterday morning and he won. Lucky guy.
But, to quote Carlton’s all time hero – Theodore Roosevelt’s diary entry on the day his first wife died
The light has gone out of my life.
Frankly, I thought there would be more time, I thought there would be more warning, I thought it would never happen.
Hang in there, Peg. We’re here for you, as you well know.
Dear Peg, I am so sorry to read of your loss, and shocked too.
Big Hugs to you Lovely Lady, you must feel so lost right now , but I hope the fact that Carlton went on his own terms gives you comfort and not to the whims of MCC
Love and hugs
Leilani and Joe Australia
Dear Peg,
Such a shock. I am deeply saddened to hear the new and my my heart goes out to you with deepest sympathies. A loss words can’t describe… Please let me know if I can help you in anyway.
Love,
Vicki
Hugs thankful you have Mr. C’s pic. He looks happy. <3